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When “Advice” Goes Wrong…

When “Advice” Goes Wrong…

I have not been posting on here much lately… Sorry about that! Honestly, I have just been too tied to form words! Lol! But I am doing great with my exercising… And I am working on doing better with food. But that is not why I am writing today.

Pet peeve time!

Something that I absolutely cannot stand about the fitness industry and something I have seen a lot while on my fitness journey is food shaming. Is that the actual term for it? I have no clue. But that is what I am calling it!

Just this morning, I had a page flash on my Facebook newsfeed with a post that seriously made me want to delete the page. I have not yet. But I might be. The page owner posted an article about how horrible bread is and said that everyone following her page should have given it up by now. Granted, this is a page with a low-carb emphasis, but still.

I cannot stand it when people try to dictate how other people should be eating. Are you someone who measures out every grain of food? That is totally fine. Do you have one splurge meal every week? Great! Do you drink Shakeology for every meal? If it works for you (and you can AFFORD that!), do it. Do you eat hot dogs for dinner and do not consider it a splurge because it is built into your calorie allowance? Do you bake French fries (not homemade ones) as part of your lunch? Do you eat zero sugar? Do most of your meal consist of Lean Cuisines? Do you eat a Big Mac for a meal now and then? Do you put two tablespoons of sugar in your coffee? As long as you are eating the right amount of calories for your body, and getting enough nutrients, I honestly do not care what you are eating! (And yes, some of these scenarios MAY apply to me… As I have French fries in the oven right now! Lol) But feel free to pass along awesome recipes!

The point of this post is to say that EVERYONE has a different journey. Each person has different exercises that they love and hate. EVERYONE has different food choices and plans that are going to work best for them. You have to find what works for YOU. And, please, stop bashing other people’s choices. This world and this journey is hard enough without having people trying to micromanage every decision that you are making! And we are hard enough on ourselves without other people adding extra pressure.

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February Wrap-Up…

February Wrap-Up…

February… it was good! Even though I definitely still have had my days of zero motivation, I stuck with it. And I definitely feel more like myself now! I am super psyched to see what March brings! Here is the schedule I have set for myself. I will be focusing more on strength training this month, as well as continuing to do my Leslie Sansone DVDs. Does anyone want to join me? :o)

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Weigh-In Monday…

Weigh-In Monday…

I have been trying to figure out all day how to go about doing this post, with no luck. So I am just going to say it. After a full week of being totally on point with my exercising and mostly good food days, plus an on-track weekend, I weighed myself this morning. ***drumroll*** I have lost 3.5 pounds since last Monday!! Eek! And yes, I know that the scale is not the only (or most important) tool out there to track how we are doing, but it sure is nice when it cooperates like that! Lol! I actually looked back over my weight log that I keep and figured out that I have only had that big of a weight loss three other times… And I was eating WAY less calories then than I am now!

One nice thing about such a fantastic weigh-in is that it really helped motivate me today. I was totally not feeling the workout groove today. I have been fighting a lingering migraine since yesterday, plus have my pinched nerve being finicky, and have just felt drained. So exercising was the last thing that felt good. But I reminded myself that I had a rest day yesterday. And I remembered how fantastic it felt to have such a great week last week. And how I am finally starting to feel like I am getting out of this glump that I feel like I have been in the past couple of months. So I turned on my DVD and got to work. And I tried to talk myself into doing just two miles instead of three. Actually, Satan tried to talk me into it. I was still feeling super tired and that second mile felt like the longest mile of my life. But I had committed to three, so I pushed those thoughts away and kept on.

And you know what? That third mile really felt great. It woke me up and it had my favorite moves. It was totally worth it! To me, the crazy thing about exercise is that it can be soooo hard to get into the habit of doing it. But once you get into that habit, and have been consistent for a while, you actually miss it if you take a “break” from it. That is totally how it has been for me. I have actually missed working out, but I was not willing to do what it took to get it back into my life… Until now!

Here’s to another fantastic week!

Feeling Determined!

Feeling Determined!

Determined.. That is the only way to describe how I feel after the day that I had today. I was on my feet almost the entire day, not really getting a chance to sit down until dinner. Library, groceries, and a massive amount of deep cleaning (apparently I have the spring cleaning bug right now!), all followed by a 5k walk with Leslie Sansone! I actually wish that I was wearing one of those Polar watches today to see how many calories I burned today! (Unfortunately, my FitBit is currently on the fritz so I do not even have a step count for the day!) All that I know is that my feet are currently throbbing and, as soon as I got cleaned up after Zeeva went to bed, I was suddenly ravenous, even though we had a late dinner tonight. I practically inhaled a plate full of ants-on-a-log! Which, by the way, I have decided is one of my all-time favorite snacks. Crunchy, salty, sweet, with protein and healthiness thrown in? Sounds good to me!

On top of having such a high calorie-burn day, I am also on day two of being great with my eating! Woohoo! If you have been following me for long, you know this is something that I have been struggling with for a while. So this is definitely a victory for me!

The main reason why I say that I feel determined right now is that, at several points today, I felt so strong. It made me feel so amazing. I have not had a “strong” day in months. I feel like I can do anything right now… Especially reach all of my fitness goals!

And now my body is aching virtually everywhere, from all my intense activity today… It honestly feels great! I am so ready for this. I am definitely back where I belong!

One More Round…

One More Round…

Throughout my life, I have always connected with music. I often did special music for church, was in a children’s choir in middle and high schools, took voice lessons in high school, and was even awarded two “leading” roles in musicals in high school. Music and I just go together. So it has always come as no surprise to me that I will occasionally find a song that I truly connect to, one that moves me and fully speaks to me and some circumstance that I have been going through.

It has actually been quite a while since that has happened, possibly because I do not often get a chance to just listen to music and be. But I had a mountain of dishes to do the other day, so I decided to play some music to keep me entertained. I just picked a random cd on my Amazon Cloud Player. I had not listened to it in a couple of years, so I chose Barlow Girl’s How Can We Be Silent cd. It was never my favorite of theirs, but I always had my few favorite songs on it. But I listened to the entire song list while I worked. And, then, it was time for my favorite song on the cd. It had been so long since I heard that song, I actually forgot what the lyrics were like. And, man, did they speak to me. God spoke to me through them. I am going to post the song link at the end of this, but I want to share a few of the lyrics with you, so you get an idea of what the song is about.

“One More Round” by barlowgirl

Round one wasn’t what I thought it’d be
Round two I’m struggling to breath
3, 4, 5, 6, 7 times I wondered why I stepped inside this ring

I may be knocked down and bruised
But I’m here to tell you
That I may be knocked down but not for the count
1,2,3,4
So take me one more round
I’ll just keep fighting
One more round
You’re messing me up but I’m still here

One more round I’ll come out swinging
One more round
I’m telling you now I’m not gonna lose it here

This song is now my official “theme song”. I did not know that I needed one, but I do. It was clear to me the moment the song started playing.

I have been through a lot with my Weight-Loss Journey. I have had a LOT of ups. But I have definitely had my share of downs, especially over the past six months. As can be clearly seen with my huge weight gain. It would be so very easy to just give up and go back to how life used to be. If I did that, I would weight another fifty pounds, easily, by the end of the year.

I do not care how many rounds it takes… I will always get back up when I fall. I will reach my fitness goals. I will keep pushing to be a better role model for me. I will improve my health. It is not even an option in my mind.

Here is the song. It will not, however work on mobile. So, if you are using an iPad or your phone, head over to YouTube and search for “One More Round” by barlowgirl. You will not regret it!

Day TWO!

Day TWO!

February 5, 2014

Today was a big day for me… Not only was I FINALLY able to eat normal food for every meal and not regret it for the first time in several days (thanks so much food poisoning!), but I was able to work out for the second day in a row. Honestly, I am not sure that I remember the last time that happened. :o/ Sad, I know. But I have been living with this shoulder injury that has been flaring up on and off since September (and has mostly been stuck in “on” mode), plus have been plagued with a few illnesses during that time. So I am feeling psyched about today.

Not only did I get in my scheduled three-mile walk with Leslie Sansone, but I also spent fifty minutes shoveling our driveway out (we got yet another eight inches of snow. Goodbye winter!) and the pulled my daughter around on her way-too-small sled for a bit. (That is her, perched on top of one of the piles of snow from clearing the driveway. I think she likes it when we have to shovel!) Then, on top of that, the DVD I did incorporated some arm exercises, which I decided to try. And I did them! Were my muscles singing? You bet! They have barely been used for months! But it felt AMAZING!!! Seriously, I actually highly miss strength training. It is one of the best feelings in the world. So I am hoping that this trend can continue and I can start working (lightly) on my arms again.

And, yes, I will absolutely say that I never would have ever thought that I would be the type of person to say that I missed doing some form of exercise. Never. But I definitely do! And it felt great to get back in the saddle tonight!

And, in a completely unrelated tangent, I have to say that I will never grow tired of hearing my daughter play with her toys and all the voices she comes up with and conversations she has. Seriously… It is one of the best things ever!

February Plan…

February Plan…
Excuse the horrible quality!

Excuse the horrible quality!

Here it is… My plan for February. It is pretty basic, because I need some basic in my life. I will be walking. Unless Spring decides to come super early to central Indiana (which would be an awesomely welcome surprise!), I will be doing my walking via Leslie Sansone DVDs. In fact, this schedule is the one that she is having as a challenge this month.

I am excited to see how it goes! My awesome hubby will be joining me too, which is always great! Fifty-seven miles, I am coming to get you!

A Zeeva Post…

A Zeeva Post…

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I have seen this saying floating around for a while now, probably since I first started on my weight-loss journey back in 2011. And it has always rang very true to me. But it passed through my Facebook newsfeed yet again today and I suddenly had a moment. This saying is not just about weight-loss anymore for me. It also absolutely applies to motherhood. As the mommy of a very headstrong three-year-old, I can absolutely apply this to that aspect of life. (By the way, to ALL of you who never warned us that three can be worse than the “terrible twos”… Shame on you!) There have been way too many days in the past six months where I have questioned if I will ever feel sane enough again to even consider trying to have another child, and I was someone who ALWAYS pictured myself with two of them. Today was one of those days. Zeeva absolutely woke up on the wrong side of the bed. AND did not take a nap, which made bedtime just delightful. So, in an attempt to reclaim my sanity, when I saw this saying today, I decided that needed to write a blog post about all the amazing qualities of Zeeva. Because I need to focus on the awesome things, instead of the things that drive me bonkers. So here we go!

First Awesome Zeeva Thing
Her empathy. Most of the time, when someone is hurt or upset, she is a great comforter. She has even lately been playing pretend with her stuffed animals and will comfort them during her play time.

Second Awesome Zeeva Thing
This kiddo has the best playing abilities. Ever, I think. It amazes me that she can now entertain herself the whole time I am doing dishes, and will be completely involved in whatever story it is that she has come up with. The other day, she even had her toys come and rescue me. She said they were saving the day. It was utterly awesome.

Third Awesome Zeeva Thing
How much she absolutely loves her family. When Thomas has to put in extra long hours at work and she does not get to interact with him as much, I can tell that she very much misses him. And she is constantly talking about our extended family members, and will even randomly tell me stories about things that she did with them weeks and even months ago. Her memory ability is crazy.

Fourth Awesome Zeeva Thing
Zeeva’s laugh. Best. Laugh. EVER. Seriously, I could listen to it all day. And she is so incredibly goofy too! What a great fit for the goofiness that Thomas and I both possess!

Fifth Awesome Zeeva Thing
Even though she definitely still needs speech therapy and there are still plenty of times when we have no clue what she is saying, Zeeva tells amazing stories. She is seriously one entertaining kiddo.

Sixth Awesome Zeeva Thing
Artistic to the core! Zeeva loves to sing and dance and paint and she’s great at all three! I’m so curious to see how those things will develop as she gets older. For now, I love listening to her songs (real and made up… She even joins me when I am singing now!), watching her lovely dancing, and seeing what she comes up with when her paintbrush is in her hand.

I am sure that there are plenty of other things I could write here, but these are the ones that really jump out at me. Really, I am so proud of my kiddo, and am trying so very hard to focus on the good right now.

I would love to hear what your favorite things are about her too, if you know her!

Weigh-In Monday…

Weigh-In Monday…

I know that I am not the first person to feel this way but this is really my least favorite time of year. Everything feels cold and grey. Even sunny days do not feel warm because the sun is at such an oblique angle that it never really warms up Indiana. And there is not much hope for relief until you get to March, when you are sure that you can feel Spring just begging to be released. Which is why it was a nice surprise to step out the door this afternoon to 47 degrees! Is it warm? Definitely not. But it is soooooo much better than the -30 degree wind chills that we had just a week ago! I know it will not last but it was nice to feel it for the few moments that I was able too.

Today was also weigh-in day for me. I did fairly well this past week, much better than I have done in a very long time. I did “have” to have a decent amount of soda in the past few days though, due to my food poisoning. It was the only type of drink that did not send my stomach into a revolt. That, combined with the copious amounts of oyster crackers that I had to consume on Friday and Saturday, made for quite a bit of water retention. I feel very swollen, to say the least. So I am not convinced that the scale was very accurate this morning. But I did lose half a pound, which puts me at 1.4 pounds down since the first of the year. And I am ok with that. It is much better than being UP that amount, which was my previous weekly trend for several months! So I will take it. And I am excited to see how the rest of this month goes. And yes, I will definitely be limiting my soda intake from now on! Lol.

I have also been doing good with my leg challenge! I had to switch things around last week, since I was sick, and I completely forgot to do it yesterday, but I can definitely feel the effects of working out again! It will be interesting to see if all of these calf raises, squats and lunges have an affect on my measurements at the end of the month.

Update Time!

Update Time!

My family and I have been snowed in at our house since Sunday. We finally got plowed out yesterday, but our garage door appears to be currently frozen shut. And the roads around here are TERRIBLE. So we are not going anywhere anytime soon. We have also had some insanely cold temperatures here for the past few days so, other than a really good romp in the snow with Zeeva on Sunday during the snow storm and before the temperatures starting dropping, I have not been out of the house since Saturday. I am glad I went out then because I was able to get the rest of the fabric I needed for the curtains I am making for our awesome new bedroom, and I was able to snag an amazing deal on two new sets of sheets. (I decided that having only one set of sheets that we were actually willing to use for our bed just was not cutting it anymore.)

For anyone who does not follow me on Facebook, here are a few shots of just how much snow we got here in Indiana…

View #1 Out Our Front Window

View #1 Out Our Front Window

That used to be our bushes and, beyond that, our driveway.

View #2 Out Our Front Window

View #2 Out Our Front Window

That used to be our pathway leading to our porch.

Our Backyard Progression

Our Backyard Progression

The top image is about two or three hours after the snow started… the bottom image is on a couple more hours after that, when it started getting dark. 12.5″ of new snow, on top of the 6-8″ that we already had!

Driveway Before and After

Driveway Before and After

That huge mountain of snow in our neighbor’s yard was from our driveway! We were disappointed that it did not get deposited in our yard.

Anyway, I do not know if being cooped up in the house has started to affect me mentally or what, but I have been putting off writing this blog post for over twenty-four hours now. And it is a good one. So what is up with that?? I weighed myself yesterday morning, because I completely forgot to weigh myself on Monday morning, which is my normal day. And, somehow, I managed to lose 0.9 pounds in six days! I say “somehow” because I really feel like I did not do a good job at all. But my good moments obviously outweighed my bad moments. And yes, I am actually exciting about the amount that I lost. I know it is not much, but it is soooooo much better than I have been doing for months. And, it gave me a push that I really needed. I had a whole day of good food choices. (When I say good, I mean that I stayed within my calorie goal for the day.) And I even set up a leg challenge for myself as a form of exercise for the rest of the month. I was originally going to be doing workout DVDs, but that has not happened (partially because I cannot find the one I wanted to start with! Booooo for being unorganized!). So this is a good start. I have been doing good with my eating today too and am even planning on having the dreaded “s” word for dinner… SALAD!! Seriously, that is big for me, as I tend to hate most salads.

One goal of mine for the next week is to cook fish one night for dinner. This is sparked because my daughter recently told me that she wants fish every day. Lol. She has had fish sticks for lunch a couple of times this week, which are not the healthiest things in the world. But she gobbles them up and apparently loves them, and it seems like it is a nice change from the pb&j sandwiches she has been insisting on eating for almost every meal. (Yes, I have somehow managed to not yet pull my hair out at that one. This is payback for me for being a super picky eater when I was growing up…). So, if you have any awesome fish recipes, feel free to shoot them my way! Especially ones that are tried and true with kiddos.

I hope we all have an amazing week! Here is the leg challenge I am doing for the rest of the month of January. If anyone wants to join in, let me know and we can all help keep each other accountable! I just finished today’s workout (after shoveling snow) and I have a feeling that I am going to be regretting those calf raises! Can you say OUCH!!!? :o)

January Leg Challenge 2014

ps… Our garage door is no longer stuck shut! Hooray!!