I feel like it has been ages since I wrote on here, but it has actually only been a month. And while I could say it is because I have been too busy being a mommy to an almost-three-year-old, I would be hiding from the truth. And the truth is, I am embarrassed. Embarrassed at how I feel. Embarrassed at how far I have fallen. Embarrassed at what I have done to myself. It is the truth.
But I am taking my life back, yet again. I never thought that I would be where I am right now, but I cannot change things. I can only try to learn from my mistakes and move forward. And right now, I am taking it one day at a time, even one decision at a time. Today was not perfect by any means, but it was a lot better than yesterday was. And that is okay. I am not seeking perfection, I am seeking a way for me to live in harmony and moderation and be the best person that I can be. I need to once again be a good example to my kiddo. (Who turns THREE on Sunday!! I cannot even begin to process that!)
I will get there.