Monthly Archives: September 2013

A Day Like Today…

A Day Like Today…

I have to tell you, it is so incredibly hard to get back into the habit of working out when you have not done it regularly for a while. It has only been like a month for me, but it is still insanely hard to get motivated, even to just take a walk around the neighborhood. Especially when I am ALSO trying to get back into the habit of eating better.

I was not perfect today with eating. But I was waaaaay better than I have been, so I am definitely counting today as a win. And, I even took a walk this afternoon with my kiddo. It was an absolutely gorgeous fall afternoon too! The trees are really going to be majorly gorgeous around here soon!

Now, I had told myself that today was going to be the day that I started Jillian Michaels’ 30 Day Shred for the first time in years. But, honestly, I kept putting it off. I was too tired this morning. I did not feel very good after lunch. I had to make dinner after our walk. Then I started thinking about my walk… Really, that was enough exercise, right? It was more than I have done in about a week, and way more than I had done for the few weeks prior to that. Why did I even need to do it tonight?

Away Satan! I needed to do it because I promised myself that I was going to do it! So, Zeeva got to stay up late tonight, while I did my workout. She drove me absolutely bonkers throughout the whole thing (tired kiddo and listening to her mommy when told she needs to not stand so close? Yeah, that is not a good combo. I was terrified I was going to clobber her by accident!). I even did it while baking some chocolate zucchini muffins. Lol. Apparently I am good at multitasking. And you know what? I feel great! It was a rough workout (especially when the jumping jacks made me painfully aware of how much weight I have gained in my tush and belly), and I am absolutely going to be way sore tomorrow, but it was so much easier than I remember it being back when I first got it years ago! In fact, I have full confidence that I will be able to finish the whole program this time!

So, in summary, I am so glad that I did so good today! I needed a day like today!

A Crazy Revelation…

A Crazy Revelation…

I had an interesting revelation about myself tonight. As a bit of background, let me start by saying that I gave a painting that I did to a friend today. She is pregnant and it is something I made for them to hang in her daughter’s bedroom. I even consulted with them, to make sure that I was going to paint something they would actually like. Everyone loved the painting at the shower, and even more people have now said so after they posted a picture on Facebook. Here is the crazy thing… I am still doubting myself and whether it is actually any good.

Why in the world is that?? I grew up in a very supportive home, one that fully encouraged any endeavor I chose to partake in, from softball to art to singing to schoolwork in general. My parents never had a bad word to say, even when I chose to back out of a few things (did anyone else suddenly become a complete klutz once puberty had fully kicked in??). So I have absolutely no clue where this tendency for self-doubt comes from within me. And, I have something that is even crazier sounding… I actually do think that I am a decent artist (and a decent singer, for that matter). But I still doubt whether anyone else will actually think so. I do not even know how to explain this without coming off sounding like I am just asking you all for praise or something. In fact, I am really not wanting that at all.

The revelation part of this whole thing (since none of this is new news for me) is that I think this actually relates to my weight-loss issues that I have had lately. In some bizarre and twisted way, I think that I have been sabotaging myself lately because I doubt whether I am actually worth it… Whether I deserve to be healthy. I will be honest… I have had a HORRIBLE week. I actually do not even know if I can put myself through the misery of stepping on the scale tomorrow. But I do know one thing… I will be getting in a major workout. I am stating right here and now that I will be doing a long walk tomorrow, plus I will be starting 30 Day Shred. And I will be eating healthy and tracking everything and drinking enough water. My reasons for doing this, even after having this revelation? Because, even if I am doubting in the deepest recesses of my mind lately whether I am worth it, I know in the very depth of my soul that my family is worth it. My daughter deserves to know what it is like to have a healthy mom. My husband deserves to not have to worry about his wife not being here. My family deserves to have many, many, MANY fun years with me.

That is why I will do what I need to do tomorrow. I am promising myself and my family that right now.

Weigh-In Monday…

Weigh-In Monday…

After a not-so-great end of the week last week (I was sick Wednesday, my parents had to put their dog to sleep Thursday, and Friday was filled with major allergies and a naughty toddler), Thomas and I were very much looking forward to our date night on Saturday. We did not do a whole lot of anything too exciting, but we did have a great time just being together and going to random places. I even broke my sweet-fast and had a very controlled ice cream cone. It was delicious. The only problem is that I then gave in to a major craving that I had on Sunday night and ate a HUGE bowl of cereal. Not great. And my tummy did not appreciate it too much either. But I have now decided that it is ok for me to have sweets again, as long as I am very controlled with it. If I cannot handle it, then I am just not allowed to have them.

Before I get into how my weigh-in went this week, I need to address my weekly questions that I am asking myself…

1. Did I overeat this week on any day? Unfortunately, yes. I ate way too much bread at dinner on Saturday and I have already confessed to my cereal mishap.
2. Did I move more and exercise regularly? Nope. But I did get in a nice walk yesterday at a state park with my daughter and my parents. And I now have an official game plan for the rest of the month, which starts today. I am doing a squat challenge, plus some arm exercises. And walking whenever possible.
3. Did I eat in secret or out of anger or frustration? Nope!
4. Did I feel, at any time, that I ran to food instead of God? No. This is something that I am truly striving to do.
5. Before I hopped on the scale, did I feel that I had a successful, God-pleasing week? Aside from overeating on the weekend a bit, I had a good week. But I do need to get back to my devotional. I have fallen off-track with that.

Time for how my weigh-in went. I gained 2.9 pounds. But I have a definite non-scale victory… It is not phasing me in the slightest! I know that I may have gained a bit this past week. But I know I sure did not gain nearly 3 pounds. It just is not possible. So I know that a lot of that gain is most likely water retention. I actually wavered on whether I should weigh myself this morning, but made myself step on the scale. I am really glad that I did because not being down about my weight being up is a huge thing for me.

And now on to the bigger news this morning… Today was measurement day! I have now been eating at a higher calorie level (and, unfortunately, not working out much) for four weeks, so it was time to check in with how my other progress went. While my upper arm and forearm stayed the exact same, the rest of my measurements all changed!

Neck: Lost 0.5″
Wrist: Lost 0.125″
Chest: Lost 0.75″
Belly Measurement #1: Lost 1.625″!
Belly Measurment #2: Lost 1.625″!
Hips: Lost 0.625″
Abductors: Lost 0.625
Thigh: Lost 0.25″
Calf: Lost 0.5″
Ankle: Lost 0.125″

That is 6.75″ lost, basically just from increasing my calorie intake to where it should be! I see overall consistent changes, with the most change in my biggest problem area. I will take it for sure! I am definitely continuing with this and am excited to see what my measurements are in another four weeks, after I have added in exercise!

I also took my progress pictures today… Only to find that I somehow have not taken them since the beginning of July. Somehow I did not end up with “starting” pictures from when I first started eating more calories four weeks ago. Oops! Oh well… The good news is that I could not see a single difference between now and the beginning of July, including in my muscle definition. After not having worked out for a month, I will take that! And now I have a good set of pictures to compare with next month!

Weigh-In Monday…

Weigh-In Monday…

Before I get into how my weigh-in went this week, I need to address my weekly questions that I am asking myself…

1. Did I overeat this week on any day? Nope! I did really good. I am even still holding strong in my “no sweets”. Today is day TWENTY and I have been able to avoid many temptations, thanks to God! I even felt strong enough yesterday to buy a treat for Zeeva and Thomas at a bake sale and have it in the house all day, without taking a single bite. Tomorrow is my halfway point in my challenge to myself, and I am totally not sweating it right now.
2. Did I move more and exercise regularly? No! I have been horrible about exercise! I need to get back in the game but it has been so incredibly HOT and I have been really busy. Excuses, excuses, I know!
3. Did I eat in secret or out of anger or frustration? Nope!
4. Did I feel, at any time, that I ran to food instead of God? No. This is something that I am truly striving to do.
5. Before I hopped on the scale, did I feel that I had a successful, God-pleasing week? I think God is happy with the progress that I have made this week!

So now, on to the results… Drumroll please… I lost another 1.8 pounds this week! That is 3.8 pounds total in the past three weeks, all “just” from eating better! And eating MORE calories that I used to! I am telling you, if you are struggling with a plateau, do not force yourself to eat even less calories… You are not eating enough!! If you do not believe me, just ask and I will send you some links to check out. This 1.8 pounds also puts me back over the 50-pounds-lost mark, which makes me feel better!

My goals for this week are simple… Keep on keeping on! Keep on doing great with the food and add some movement in somewhere! Next week is measurements too, which has me slightly nervous, only because I have not been exercising and I feel big right now. But I am sure the nervousness is just silly!

My Two-Year Anniversary!

My Two-Year Anniversary!

I cannot believe that I forgot, but yesterday was my two-year anniversary of starting my weight-loss journey! Wow… I cannot believe that much time has gone by already. Honestly, I thought I would be at my “goal weight” by now. But I actually currently weight about ten pounds more than I did at this point last year. I am mostly okay with that… I think I needed to stumble a bit to learn some more things about myself. And I am absolutely back on track with my eating. And today is the day that I get back on track with my exercise! I have come way too far to give up now. And, honestly, I LIKE having some tone and muscles, so I need to workout to keep them!

Now, on to Weigh-In Monday. I know, I know, I know… I said I was not going to be weighing myself for now. But it felt like the right thing to do this morning. So, as long as I am feeling strong, I am going to weigh myself once a week.

Here is the cool thing… I have officially lost two pounds in the past twelve days… While eating MORE calories than I have ever allowed myself while on my weight-loss journey! I am currently eating around 2,100 calories a day. I am so excited to see that “Eating the Food” really does work! Here are my weekly questions to go with my weigh-in days:

1. Did I overeat this week on any day? No. I was slightly more lenient this weekend and even allowed myself one “cheat meal” on Friday (homemade pizza), but I was very controlled and was even able to stick to not eating sweets when faced with a platter of buckeyes all day yesterday! That is a definitely WIN in my book!
2. Did I move more and exercise regularly? No. I need to get back in the groove of working out. I am definitely going to work on that this week.
3. Did I eat in secret or out of anger or frustration? Nope!
4. Did I feel, at any time, that I ran to food instead of God? No. This is something that I am truly striving to do.
5. Before I hopped on the scale, did I feel that I had a successful, God-pleasing week? I think God is happy with the progress that I have made this week!

Now, I am posting this picture to remind myself of how very far I have come. The picture on the left is my “starting picture”… But it was actually taken after I had already lost ten pounds! I do not have a true starting picture. (If you are just starting out your journey, I would HIGHLY recommend you get starting pictures from all angles… It sucks to start wi but you will soon thank yourself!) The picture on the right is actually from about a month ago. I should take one right now, but I just know it will not be happening this week. So this will have to do!

Do I have issues I still need to work out? Sure. Do I have areas of my body I still want major changes in? Absolutely! But I am a completely different person now than I once was and that alone is worth everything. I am staying strong in being healthy… And I highly encourage you to join me!