Monthly Archives: April 2013

To Cheat or Not to Cheat…

To Cheat or Not to Cheat…

I am going to be honest here… I have had a really hard time with food lately. I will give myself a cheat meal, or even just a treat item, and it will end up turning into four days of bad eating. It has been very frustrating. Especially since we have a lot of special occasions coming up in the near future that we will be eating out for… Tonight, for instance, we went out for my dad’s birthday. And I decided that I was DETERMINED to have a nice, awesome meal, without cheating on my “diet”.

The restaurant-of-choice for the birthday boy was Chili’s. In the past, pre-weightloss journey (and maybe even during my journey!), I would have picked an entree that was at least 1,500 calories… And that would have just been for the main course. That would not have included the probably 400 calories of soda I would have consumed, or the 1,000 calories I would have had while splitting an appetizer and a dessert. At my current weight, in order to maintain my weight, I need to consume around 2,300 calories… And to lose at a decent rate, I need to have 1,600 calories a day. So those previous numbers would definitely not have helped me toward my goals!

Tonight was different… I was determined to prove to myself that I can eat out without having a “cheat” meal. I ordered a 6-ounce steak without the butter that it comes with, and subbed the sides that it normally comes with for rice and pineapple (that’s an awesome tip for Chili’s… They have a lot of fruit sides available, but they don’t advertise them. They are listed on their kid’s menu.), and I ordered a side of honey-chipotle sauce that I used sparingly on the steak. And I allowed myself to have one nibble of someone else’s dessert. All of that together was just over 500 calories. And I was full! It tasted amazing, and felt even better because I knew I was making awesome choices for myself. And, even better, today was a weight-lifting day for me, so I knew I actually needed the protein the steak provided! And I was even able to say no to the appetizer that was ordered, even though it was my favorite one! Woohoo!

And now I actually have calories left over for the day, plenty to use on an evening snack! I feel so proud of myself!

Ps…. I want to wish a HUGE HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dad and my uncle!!!! Yes, they are twins. ;o)

I Did It!

I Did It!

For those of you who do not know, I went to college for graphic design. I do not really use it much anymore but I worked outside the home as a graphic designer for about five years, and then worked with Thomas at home for the next couple of years. But I have not done much work since Zeeva was born, just a few odds and ends here and there. I am also an “artist”… I say that with quotations around it because I honestly feel like a fraud when I say that. I have not done much art since college, but especially in the past few years. I want to… It is just hard sometimes.

But I finally finished a painting! It is my first real piece of finished art since I was pregnant with Zeeva three years ago and did two murals… One on a friend’s nursery wall and a hand painted border that is on Zeeva’s walls. And, while I would not consider it my best piece of art I have ever made, it is really important to me because I created it as a focal point for my life right now. I have lost focus on a lot of things and my hope is that, by having it in my living room, it will be a constant reminder for me to focus on the things that are important to me.

Focus. “Let your eyes look directly forward, & your gaze be straight before you.”
– Proverbs 4:25