Ugh… I am so not proud of myself right now. I have eaten HORRIBLY for the past week or so. I have lost count how many days, that is how far off track I have gotten. I am disgusted with myself. I do not even have any “reasonable” excuses. I just caved to temptation again and again and again. And, on top of not eating good at all, I have not had enough water, so my body is screaming at me right now.
I am done beating myself up over it though. I messed up royally. I know that. There is also not a single thing I can do to change what I have done. Being mad at myself and beating myself up are only going to accomplish one thing… Making me depressed. And that is definitely not somewhere I want to be. So I am just moving on. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Heck… Tomorrow is a brand new MONTH! So here is my plan for April:
First of all, I am going to weigh myself tomorrow morning. Do not worry… I am not going to look at the weight. I am still not doing that until at least the first day of summer. (If you have no clue what I am talking about, check out this post!) But I do feel like I need to weigh myself and let my Wii record my weight, so when I am “allowed” to look again, I can look back and see the damage I did this past week or so. I need to be accountable. In fact, I am now going to weigh myself every week, just like that, for this very reason… I need to stay accountable to myself.
Secondly, I am going to drink WATER! Especially for the next few days… I need extra right now to help flush some of the craziness out of my system. I am also having some crazy allergy stuff going on today, so I really need the extra fluids. (My nose is red from blowing it so much!)
Third… I am going to continue with the Turbo Fire and ChaLEAN Extreme combination I have been doing. I have liked it so far (although switching DVDs can get a bit confusing!), and I am excited to see how far it brings me. I have actually been doing pretty good with my exercise for the past week or two, despite the horrible food choices. I just need to stick with ALL of my workouts, not just the ones I actually “want” to do!
Fourth… NO fast food! I normally do not even like fast food. But I have eaten fries at least three times in the past week! BLECK! I do not even really like fries. What in the world is wrong with me??! So no fast food! And MUCH better food choices! I will be staying within my calories every day, and will allow myself ONE treat meal when I go out for a date with my husband. (By the way, I recently have heard the phrase “treat meal” instead of “cheat meal” from several different sources. I love this!)
And finally, the last thing I am going to focus on this month really does not have a lot to do with my weight loss. I need to focus on myself and using the gifts God has given me and knowing that I am good enough. I have a blog post planned about this whole topic so keep an eye out for it!