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ChaLEAN Extreme Day 30, Take TWO!

ChaLEAN Extreme Day 30, Take TWO!

Today was measurement day for Day 30 of my 2nd time through ChaLEAN Extreme… And I cried. And it was not a good cry.  :o( I worked my BUTT off this month… Or so I thought. And I had my smallest amount of loss ever in the past year, other than one month when I gained three inches. It ended up losing 2.75″ all together, but I seriously started crying as I was writing down the numbers and realizing that all my hard work amounted to basically nothing. The last time I did this round of ChaLEAN Extreme, I lost 8.25″, so I was really expecting a huge amount. Especially since I had such dismal results on the scale for most of the month… I thought I would make up for it and see my results in inches. No such luck. I guess I really was eating a lot worse than I realized this month.

These results really got me down this morning… I am still bummed, but I did decide to put things in perspective. Here is what I have lost since October 28, 2011:

    neck: 2.375″
    upper arm: 2.75″
    forearm: 1.375″
    wrist: 0.875″
    chest: 3.25″
    waist: 5.75″!!
    hips: 7.25″!!!!!!
    thigh: 4.25″!!
    calf: 2″
    ankle: 1″

That is a total of 30.875 INCHES. That is HUGE! So, yes… I did not have the month I thought I would have. Yes, I did sabatouge all of my hard work my overeating (which just goes to show that you cannot out-exercise a bad diet). But I have come a LONG way since this time last year! And I did stick with my workouts, and can be proud of that. I put in a total of 31.68 miles and 1548 minutes of exercise this month! (I still have the rest of today left, so I may have more to add to these totals) I reached my goals of 31 miles and 1500 minutes! Woohoo! I stuck with it and that is what matters. And I can now reward myself with my new hair cut that I have been really wanting to get!

Now on to bigger and better things… I am very happy to say that I have stayed under (or right on) my calorie goal for the past four days in a row! Woohoo! (today WILL be day number five!) I know that may not sound very exciting to… well, any of you… but for someone who has struggled for most of the past two months to stay on top of keeping track of my food, and for someone who has definitely been snacking too much, this is huge. And two of those days were on the weekend, which is even bigger! Weekends are always harder… Why is it so easy to justify cheating on your “diet” on the weekend? Anyway, I have made two changes in the past two days that I think will help a lot. One is that I have actually started pre-planning a serving of tea (and everything I put in it) for during my nighttime snack. That way, the calories are already accounted for… And I no longer feel like I need to fight against my tea urges.  ;o) The second adjustment is the amount of cereal I am eating at breakfast. When I first started tracking my food intake, I realized that I was eating a lot more cereal than was in a serving. Like, some days it was seriously about three servings… Or maybe more, depending on the type of cereal I was eating! So it was a major adjustment to wean myself down to a single serving. I do love me some cereal!  ;o) For the past few months, I’ve been eating one cup of multigrain Cheerios combined with a quarter cup of peanut butter Cheerios. It is a great combination. But I have noticed lately that I am usually not real hungry when it is time for lunch, because of the amount of time that I have between the two meals. So, I decided to alter my cereal… I am now eating three-quarters of a cup of the multigrain, still combined with the other. And I reduced the amount of milk I having with it from half a cup to a third of a cup. I know it may not sound like much, but it saves me just shy of fifty calories… Which adds up quickly!

Thankfully, due to my changed eating habits and actually tracking my calories, my weigh-in went much better than my measurements did. I lost 1.8 pounds! And that is after only four days of keeping close track again! Yippee!! I will admit, I was very glum about this when I first weighed myself. I knew it was a great number but I had just done my measurements, so I was definitely in a bad mood. But I quickly started to focus on this instead of my measurements. Looking back through my records, the last time I lost this much in one week was over two months ago! So I definitely feel great about this number. And I am now only 0.6 pounds away from finally being “out of debt” from the gains that I have had the past two months. I am very excited to start losing again for real! I am sick of this losing-weight-that-I-have-already-lost crap!

This post is already getting really long, so I will be back tomorrow with my plan for November! I will say this… My weight loss this week is making me rethink my original plan for November. I may stick with that plan, but I may change it up a bit too. You will have to tune in to find out!

Confession Time…

Confession Time…

Confession time… I skipped my workout tonight. I had no real reason… It was not because I was tired, or feeling sick, or anything like that. In fact, I fully intended on doing it up until it was time to do it. I am not sure what happened there. But I let myself down a bit.

However, I did make up for it some. I was tallying up my workout minutes for the week and realized that I was going to be about thirteen minutes short of my goal. That was not acceptable to me, especially since I was perfectly fine to work out tonight. So I did my yoga video. It was not my intended workout, but it was after 11 pm, so I decided it was more appropriate for near bedtime. That put me over my goal by eight minutes! Which means I have been over my goal every week this month! And I am WELL on track to reaching my goal of 1500 minutes of exercise for the month! I am really going to have to push myself in order to reach my miles goal, but I am determined to do it… Even if I have to walk eight miles on Halloween!

And, in other news, today is the first day in a while that I have had calories left over at the end of the day! Sixty-five calories to be exact. Woohoo! This is the start of better eating for me! I even ate a cucumber at dinner instead of searching through the cupboards for something random. Score one for Jessii!

Defeats… And Victories!

Defeats… And Victories!

Defeats first… I did not do good with eating or exercising this weekend. We were up at Thomas’s parent’s house and, I swear, I have such a hard time staying on track there! (through my own doing, no one else’s) I just always manage to find all the goodies and I always make bad choices for food (a candy bar and a soda are not exactly healthy)… Surprisingly, I actually think I did ok when it came to meals. It was just the in between times that I had problems. 

And I went there fully intending on working out on Friday night and Saturday morning. I even brought my workout shoes and clothes with me. Friday night I did manage to do my Ab workout, so I got in about twelve minutes of activity. But I did not do my yoga workout. Then Zeeva decided to only let me sleep about three hours on Friday night (which was, sadly, more than the TWO I got Saturday night!), so I was absolutely exhausted all day Saturday. I definitely did not ever seriously consider working out. I did get in a little bit of walking around when we went to a pumpkin patch, but that was it.  Even today, I did not do my intended workout. I walked about a mile while shopping during the day, but that is it. And I am not even sure if I am going to count that toward my monthly total. I was not feeling too great earlier, which is why I decided to put off my workout until tomorrow.

So, I am lacking a bit in certain areas. But tomorrow is a new day and I plan to take full advantage of it!  :o)

Now on to the victories! I went clothing shopping with my mom today (Zeeva was REALLY GOOD, by the way… She was only fussy a few times and it was easily remedied by pushing the stroller around. She had fun with grandma!). I have to say, first of all, thank you to my mom for helping me get out of my comfort zone! She encouraged me to try on some leggings with a long sweater, which is something I would have NEVER thought would look good… I was even uncomfortable as I was pulling them up my legs (and I also had crazy flashbacks to being a preteen and LIVING in leggings). But I tried them and, I have to say, I actually thought they looked cute on me! In fact, I had a crazy thought at one point that my legs even looked skinny in them! For someone who has always hated her legs and still has quite a bit of weight to lose, that is huge.

I also completed my fall outfit that I have been putting together! I bought tights and a sweater to go with my knee high boots that I recently bought. And, I am not sure if I have already mentioned this, but I started my first clothing repurpose last week! I have a skirt that someone gave me that fit in the waist but was way too long on me. So I cut some of the length off and added a ruffle to it. It looks cute and goes great with the outfit. I still have two decorative things I want to do to it, but it is wearable in its currently condition. I wore it today, in fact!

I also bought a new pair of jeans today. I have not purchased any jeans since March, and my only pair that I have is getting to the point where they fall down when I walk. So, I decided it was time to take the plunge. Just over a year ago, I was wearing size 20 jeans (and, honestly, some of the pairs I had were a bit snug). In March, I bought size 14 jeans. Today, I bought size TEN! Woohoo! I am soooo close to being able to fit into single digits! I KNOW I will be buying a pair of single-digit jeans for myself for my thirty-first birthday! And, speaking of single digits, I saw a cute dress at Target today that I decided to try on, just for the fun of it. I knew I would not buy it, but I was feeling daring. It looked cute, but was something that I would have nowhere to wear it to. But the great thing was, it was a size EIGHT! And it was very form-fitting! Woohoo! Talk about a victory!

So, even though I did not have the best weekend with choices I made, I had a great day that reminded me of how far I have come and what great choices I have been making for over a year now. One weekend will NOT make me through that all away!

Ps… I forgot to mention one more thing. My workout goal last week was 300 minutes. Even though I did not get my workout in two days, I still blew my goal out of the water! 330 minutes! Woohoo!

Weigh-In Wednesday and FIELD TRIP!

Weigh-In Wednesday and FIELD TRIP!

Ok… I am Bummed, with a capital B. I REALLY thought I was going to have an awesome weight loss this week. A huge one. Instead, I lost 0.2 pounds.  :o( If I had not had an outing planned with Zeeva this morning, I seriously probably would have moped around the house all morning. It is just very discouraging to be working SO. HARD. ALL. MONTH. and feel like I have no progress to show for it. Yes, I do realize that my real progress will probably be evident when it is time for my photos and measurements on the 30th. But it would really be nice if the scale would cooperate a bit.

I am starting to think that maybe I need to put away the scale for a while. I am contemplating just weighing myself on my ChaLEAN phase start and end dates, so I can see a bigger number, instead of focusing so much on these measly numbers I have been having. Any thoughts on this?

In other news, Zeeva and I attended our first Mommy & Me outing today! We went to a little tree farm/pumpkin patch that is actually only like five minutes from my parents house (but I somehow have never even heard of it!). A friend of mine from college invited me… She was trying out the group for the first time too. I was a bit hesitant at first because I am horrible about meeting new people, plus it made me nervous to have to deal with Zeeva in that type of setting all by myself. And we had to get up early. We actually almost did not go because someone was a big old cranky pants this morning. But I mustered up my courage and actually had a pretty good time! Zeeva only had one minor meltdown, and was really good other than that. She got to see a few animals, swing on her first big-girl swing, roll pumpkins down a hill (which is where the meltdown ensued), hike through a corn maze, pick out a pumpkin to bring home, and take her first ever hay ride (which she LOVED). And I got to hold her for at least 80% of the time!  Lol… She was very shy, which is totally not her style. But the weather was gorgeous… Nice and sunny and a decent temperature (but we could have done without the crazy wind).

After the field trip, we went to visit my dad at work. There, Zeeva got to eat lunch in a big girl chair for the first time, got to ride on the Garfield ride (which she was very unsure of… She really does not seem to like those moving animal rides.), and she got to snuggle with a big stuffed Garfield. Yep,she had a great day! I think we will be joining the Mommy & Me group for other outings in the future… It is good for her to be around other kids. And it is definitely good for me to have a bit of a change of pace… Which, in turn, is good for ALL of us!  ;o)

I am STRONG!

I am STRONG!

STRONG! That is how I feel right now… With about fifteen exclamation points! First, I have to say, for those of you who may not already know, I did not work out last night. My nerve pain that I get periodically suddenly flared up last night and I spent mot of the evening moaning in bed. So, a workout was not high on my list of things to do. But I was really bummed about missing it… I had not missed a day in October up to that point. But sometimes you just have to listen to your body.

And I did listen to my body today. It told me that it could handle a brutal workout… So I did double the workout I had planned today! Anyone who has ever done ChaLEAN Extreme is going to think I am INSANE when they read this (and I am questioning that myself), but I did Burn Circuit 3 this afternoon followed by Burn Intervals, Recharge, and a quick Ab workout tonight! I REALLY wanted to make up for missing yesterday! And I REALLY wanted to meet my workout goal that I had for this week. I had planned on working out for 334 minutes… I did 337! Woohoo! And the amazing amount I worked out today (106 minutes, plus walking around an outdoor mall that I did not even count!) just shows me that it really is a mind game sometimes. There are plenty of days when there is no way that I would have even attempted this. But I am bound and determined to reach my goals this month! And I have an awesome motivator waiting at the finish line… My new hair style! Eek! I am so excited for that!

Speaking of motivators… For YEARS I have wanted a pair of cute tall boots. I have never been able to get a pair, though, because my calves were always too fat. And I do not mean that they just did not look good. I mean that I would be unable to get the boots on! Talk about embarrassing. Well, tonight, I was eyeing some boots and mentioned to my hubby that I really wanted to get a pair this winter. And he told me to go ahead and try to find some I liked. I am very proud to say that I was able to fit into EVERY pair that I tried on!! Eek!!! I even bought one of them! Woohoo! I am now halfway to getting a super cute outfit that I have been really wanting to wear this winter… A sweater, a cute skirt, TIGHTS, and an awesome pair of boots. I have the skirt (after I alter it a bit), and now have the boots. Woohoo! 

Yep, today was a great day! I am even able to forget about Zeeva refusing to nap and then screaming in her crib for an hour at bedtime! Lol… Working out does wonders!

Ps… I forgot, I wanted to share this too. We ate out for dinner, which I often use as an excuse to go over a bit on my calories, especially when it is a weekend. Why do we do that to ourselves?? Anyway, I actually made it out of the restaurant with only consuming 516 calories… And I even ate French fries! Woohoo! I still had 370 calories left for the day when we got home! That is awesome!

Weigh-In Wednesday…

Weigh-In Wednesday…

Ok… Today is a bit weird for me. Let me stat out by saying that I have ROCKED my workouts this month. I have put in exercise time of more than 30 minutes every single day. And many days have been a lot more than that. So, I am very happy with myself about that. I promised that I would do better with my workouts and that I would stick with my plan and I HAVE. I have had to change up a couple of things, but I am ok with that.

I did lose weight this week. I lost 0.4 pounds. I have to admit, I am a bit bummed by that. I was really expecting to see at least a pound and a half gone. I am honestly hoping that my body is still just retaining water from my increased workouts and that I will see an amazing loss next week. I could really use that. I know that the scale is not everything… I really do. But it can be a bit disheartening when you have been really pushing yourself and the pounds are not coming off.  But I am trying to just focus on how I have been rocking my workouts. I even made up for missing Monday’s main workout last night, even though I was in a horrible mood and absolutely did not want to do it. It actually helped me get in a better mood, and I felt better about myself.

With all that being said, I have some goals for the next week.

    1. I would LOVE to lose two pounds. I seriously think that I would jump up and down and cheer if I saw that.
    2. I need to keep better track of my calories.
    3. I need to actually stay within my calorie allowance! I have given myself a bit of leniency this past week, because I have been working so hard and I have been so hungry. But I cannot keep doing that. I need to figure out something that will help me feel fuller.
    4. Continue rocking my workouts!

That is all I have for now. I hope everyone is doing fantastically!

Ps… I just remembered that I had a definite splurge day on Saturday… Date night with Thomas, which included eating out and seeing a movie. I definitely went over my calories that day, probably by quite a bit. So I am feeling a bit better about only losing 0.4 pounds!

A Breakthrough…

A Breakthrough…

I just finished my first round of Burn Intervals for this time through ChaLEAN Extreme. I am shaking, dripping sweat and in desperate need of a shower. But I am taking a moment to write this blog entry. Why? Because Burn Intervals was my stumbling block for the whole month of September.

For those of you who do not know, I was sick for about half of September. I had two whole weeks when I really could not work out. That really threw me off my game. I finished my first round of ChaLEAN Extreme on August 31. And I had every intention of starting over again right away. But I was sick for the first week of September. So I started after that week… And only made it through the first two workouts. I got to Burn Intervals and simply lost all drive and desire to continue. So I slacked off for the rest of the week… And then ended up sick again… With a completely different type of illness, by the way! I was sick for about ten days this time. And I started the program over at that point… With the same results. I made it through the first two workouts and then quit. 

That was just last week. I am DETERMINED this time. And I made it through my roadblock! I have to say, it was very tempting to just not work out tonight. I was in a bad mood and am tired and contemplated putting it off until tomorrow. But I did it anyway… And it felt GREAT! It is a HARD workout, but I was glad for every minute of it. Toward the end, as I had sweat dripping from everywhere (gross visual, I know!), all I could think of was how proud of myself I was and how that sweat was representing all the pounds dripping off of me. It has been a long journey to lose 56 pounds thus far… And I know I still have a long journey ahead of me. I will NOT give up!

Ps… Tis workout was in addition to doing my daily Ab workout and taking a 1.5 mile walk around the neighborhood with my hubby and kiddo before dinner. Yep, I pretty much kicked today’s tushy!

Weigh-In Wednesday…

Weigh-In Wednesday…

Good news first… I have been sticking with my workout schedule thus far this month! Lol… Yes, I know we are only two days down, but it is still a great thing! I did have to alter yesterday’s schedule a bit… It was just too gloomy to take a walk. So I did some yoga instead. My muscles appreciated that one, but I am soooo sore today! I do not know if it is from yesterday or left over from Monday. Either way, I am definitely sore!

Bad news now… I gained 2.4 pounds!!  :o( I am so incredibly bummed about that! I am really praying that most (or all!) or it is water retention from starting up the major workout program again. But I have to say that, even with that hope in the back of my mind, it really sucked to see that. I ended up bawling at one point this morning because of it.  :o( So please send up some prayers that I have an AWESOME loss next week. I am so sick of bouncing back and forth between the 150s & 160s! I have been going up and down, up and down, since the end of August. I know that it is all my fault, but is so very discouraging to see that.  :o(

So, here is my game plan for the next week. 

    1. Water, water, WATER! I have had a couple of sodas in the past week, which is not normal for me, so I am not doing that anymore. I have also been having more tea, but I think that is ok as long as I have the calories and it is not interfering with my water intake.
    2. Track my food! I have been doing bad about this. I have typically been ok until around dinner time… Then I just get lazy and do not record the rest. And I have been getting very snacky at night, so I NEED to track. I do not think I have done too badly with my calories, but I still need to make sure I am writing everything down.
    3. Measure my food! I have been bad about just eyeballing certain foods (like sugar in my tea)… I need to make sure I am breaking out the measuring cups and spoons.
    4. Keep up the exercise! I have been doing great, this far. Tomorrow is the day in my workout routine when I typically start getting lazier. It is not going to happen this week! I can adjust some things if I need to, but I will replace them with something else if that happens. I am determined to meet my goals this month!

This brings me to my goals for the month, which I just realized that I did or ever share with you all. At least, I do not think it did! I am participating in two challenges so far for the month of October. One is to simply commit to 31 minutes of working out for each of the 31 days in October. The other one is for miles logged and minutes spent working out this month. So here is a list of those specific goals.

    At least 31 minutes every day
    A total of 31 miles of walking
    A total of 1500 minutes spent working out
    Complete the Burn Phase of ChaLEAN Extreme

My reward for completing the Burn Phase of ChaLEAN Extreme is to get my hair cut. I have been growing it out for MONTHS now… Actually, it has probably been close to a year. And it is really starting to drive me NUTSO! Anyone who knows me, knows that I do not do well with long hair. It has only been this long once since I was a kid, and that was when I was growing it out so I could have pretty wedding hair more than seven years ago. It is past my shoulders and really annoying me. I rarely wear it down. The only good thing about this length is that it is easy to put up in two buns when I am working out or am just feeling hot. But I am incredibly ready for a change. I am not telling anyone (even Thomas!) what I am getting done, but I am excited about it. I am hoping that this excitement will help me stay motivated to stick with this round of ChaLEAN Extreme so I can redeem my reward!

I have to say, I actually feel a bit calmer now about my weigh-in. I think that it helps to just talk it out sometimes, instead of holding in the frustration.

Getting My Head Back in the Game…

Getting My Head Back in the Game…

Ok people. It is a new month and I need to really get my head back in the game! I was sick for more than HALF of September and I want to make up for lost time. I need to get back to better eating habits. I especially need to get back to exercising regularly. My workouts have been basically nonexistent for the past month. So I am committing to make October my best month yet! I know I can do it!