Monthly Archives: August 2012

Pity Party…

Pity Party…

Pity party… That is how I feel right now.  :o( 

Bad day… Not a great week in general. And to top it all off, I am a complete emotional wreck this week and have been hit with the worst PMS symptoms that I have had in quite a while (sorry to any guys who may be reading this). So, yeah… I am really not feeling it this week. I have let myself down. I wanted to leave this week in the dust… I was planning on killing every workout. Instead, I feel like I have barely even survived this week. I know I am human… It is just a really bad week to have a meltdown.

In light of this, I am not really expecting much out of my weigh-in and measurements on Saturday. I know that I will still have great results for my year-to-date amounts, but I really do not know what to expect for my ChaLEAN Extreme day 90 results. I will try to be happy with whatever they are though.

I hope everyone’s having a better week than me!I

When Life Gets in the Way…

When Life Gets in the Way…

It is so hard to have a sick kiddo. I feel like I am sick because I have been putting so much extra into her. I am exhausted! Yesterday was rough… Zeeva’s fever spiked and she was MISERABLE. We felt so bad for her! I even asked my parents if they could come over for dinner, thinking that it would distract her from how she was feeling. That worked to some extent but she was still miserable and would not eat any dinner. Poor kiddo! We did bring her to the doctor today and got verification that she has Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease. Translation? There is nothing we can do to speed it along… It just has to run it’s course. The doctor did think that she is probably getting close to feeling better though, based on the normal timeline. But she said this is an extra bad strain of it.  :o( Zeeva was NOT happy about being at the Doctor’s office either… She bawled any time the nurse or doctor came near her.

All in all, Zeeva actually seemed to be feeling better today even though her fever was the highest it had ever been this morning. She hardly ate any food the whole day but she was pretty happy and played a lot. So that is something. And she is currently sleeping peacefully in her crib.

Having a sick child really makes it hard to take care of yourself. I am almost positive that I went over my calories yesterday… I could not even remember what I had eaten during the day when I thought about it last night. The whole day is kind of a blur. But I am not going to worry about it. Life happens sometimes.

Tonight, I really did not want to work out. After we put Zeeva to bed, I really was not feeling great. I felt kind of queasy and completely exhausted. But I really wanted to try to do at least some of the workout. I decided that, even if it made me puke, I was going to at least try. 

Well, I ended up doing more than try… I made it through the whole workout! Woohoo! I am still exhausted, but I actually do not feel pukey at all anymore. And I can relax and know that I did what I could to better my health today. It is easy to workout when you are feeling motivated… It is the times when you work out when you really do not feel like it that matter the most!

Four days left until my anniversary!!!

Kicking It Into Gear!

Kicking It Into Gear!

I have not been good about exercising this week. My head has just not been in the game, which is not good. We did do several family walks, but they are not exactly the same as an intense ChaLEAN Extreme workout.

But today is a new day! Thomas and I killed our workout tonight…. It was insanely hard, after not having done a major workout like that for a week, but it felt sooooo good! I am down to ONE WEEK LEFT before my one-year anniversary of being on my weight-loss journey and I intend to put it to good use and really kill it!  I am not going to weigh myself until my anniversary, which is Saturday… Which is also measurement day!  :o) I am excited!

In related news, I have been doing awesomely with being sweet free! Two whole weeks down and five (GASP!) to go! It sounds like an insanely long time, but I am excited to prove to myself that I can do it.

Side note… Please send up prayers for Zeeva! She has a horrible rash right now and a fever on and off. She seems to be doing ok, other than being a bit fussy at times. But I just feel so bad for her. The rash looks like it hurts a ton (but I do not think it really does). Poor kiddo! It is so hard when she is sick!

Weigh-In Wednesday & Stuff!

Weigh-In Wednesday & Stuff!

Hey, I am actually remembering to post about Weigh-In Wednesday on… Wednesday! Lol… It was bound to happen one of these weeks!  ;o)

I am extremely happy to say that I lost enough weight to FINALLY really reach my next two goals! I have now lost 25% of my starting weight and am officially considered “overweight” instead of “obese”! Woohoo! (yes, I thought I reach these goals a few weeks ago, but I realized a few days ago that my calculations had gotten off from what my Wii said. Check out this post to see the full details.)

So, I lost a total of 2.2 pounds this past week!! Yippeeeeeeee!!! I have now lost 56 pounds! I am super excited!

My next goal is to lose 30% of my starting weight. I have just over 10 pounds to go until I get there, so this may be a long stretch for me. But I WILL get there!

On to other things… Zeeva woke up in a HORRIBLE mood this morning. That is trying on any day, but today was her first gymnastics class, so it was even worse timing. I actually considered not bringing her because of her bad mood. But I went ahead and brought her anyway. The class was… Interesting. I am not sure what to think of it. I kind of wonder if (for her personality and stuff) she is still too young for the class. I seriously had to wrestle with her for more than half the time, just trying to get her to wait her turn or stay in a certain area. There were some things that she loved, like the balance beam. There were some things that she was scared of at first but then got the hang of and loved, like the trampoline and the bouncy house. But, man, did I have to fight her a lot! One of the moms said that it gets better… But I don’t know if I can wait for it to get better! Lol… It was a major workout, trying to hold her still! I was sweaty when I left!

So, I am not sure where we stand with the classes… Luckily, I have a whole week to think about it!

A Bit of Hodgepodginess!

A Bit of Hodgepodginess!

I have a bunch of things floating through my mind right now, so this is going to be a hodgepodge post! Yea!  ;o)

1! It is so cool to me how God can just interact with you when you are least expecting it. I think that I mentioned recently that we have not been the best about going to church this year… It seems like something always happens on Sundays, like a work emergency or someone ends up sick. So I am always thankful when we do make it. And yesterday’s service was awesome… Worship really hit home with me in a big way. Well, this morning, I was taking Zeeva to her first play date with a new friend and I have the radio on a Christian radio station that I listen to about 75% of the time that I am in the car. The very first song that came on the radio as we were driving down the road was “One Thing Remains” by Jesus Culture. I have only heard this song once at church and never on the radio, but it hit me like a ton of bricks. It is definitely my new favorite. The lyrics that really got me were “Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me”. Even now, I have tears in my eyes just writing them. In the car, I was crying as I was belting out the words. It was an amazing interaction with God, out of the blue. It was Him saying that, no matter what, He is there and He LOVES me. Nothing can ever change that. 

Higher than the mountains that I face
Stronger than the power of the grave
constant in the trial and the change

One thing remains

Your love never fails
It never gives up
It never runs out on me

Because on and on and on and on it goes
It overwhelmes and satisfies my soul
And I’ll never, ever, have to be afraid

One thing remains

In death
In life 
I’m confident and covered by the Power of Your great love

My dept is paid 
There’s nothing that can separate
My heart from Your great love

Ok, now let me see if I can even switch gears after that one!

2! Zeeva had so much fun at her play date this morning! I brought her over to my sister’s friend’s house. She has a daughter who is just about two months older than Zeeva. I do not know why we never thought about it before, but they had a great time playing together. Most of the kids Zeeva gets to see at church are boys, so it was nice to see her playing with another girl. And I think it will help them both get over the shyness that they tend to have around other people. (although Zeeva is starting to grow out of that sometimes) she got so worn out that I had a hard time keeping her awake in the car for the drive home!  I had to bribe her with a snack! I am just glad I had some with me!

3! Zeeva is going to go to her first ever GYMNASTICS class on Wednesday morning! Woohoo! I think she will have a blast and am hoping that it will teach her some patience (because she will have to wait her turn). She must be gearing up for it though because she did her first ever somersault after lunch today! She did about 20 of them in all. She was sooo proud. It was adorable.

4! We have had some amazing weather the past few days, and it is supposed to be getting hotter again for the rest of the week. Which I am actually glad about. We have had such a hot summer that our pool has been like bath water on most days. So we have not gotten in it very much, but I am hoping to really get a lot of use out of it this week. Soon enough, it will be time to close it for the season. Which is depressing since it was so stinking expensive to get it opened this year! I think we may try to figure out how to close it ourselves this year, instead of paying a company. It is in-ground, so it is a bit trickier to do. But it would be a LOT cheaper than the other option!

Well, I think that is all the Hodgepodginess that I have for you all right now! I hope it was not too random for you!  ;o)

Bummer…

Bummer…

I use my Wii Fit Board to weigh myself. I noticed this week that the number on my account did not correspond to the weight I have written down on my chart. So, I decided to take some time today when Zeeva was napping to go back through all my weigh-ins and see what happened to make the amount get off track. And I am now bummed. Apparently I cannot just go by what the program says when it says I have lost X amount. I need to go in and verify the actual weight that it records because it apparently records 100ths of a pound that add up over time. So I have not lost 25% of my starting weight, and I have not reached “overweight” status (instead of “obese”). So I am a bit bummed. I have now lost 53.8 pounds and am half a pound away from being “overweight”. I WILL get there next week! And I WILL reach my 25% mark too!

In finding this error, I decided to go through and redo Thomas’s chart too and I found an error in his. I apparently wrote down his starting weight wrong. So he has now lost THIRTY pounds!!! WOOHOOOOOO!! I am so proud of him! Way to go babe!

Weigh-In Wednesday…

Weigh-In Wednesday…

This week’s weigh-in went pretty much as expected. I gained 0.4 pounds. Actually, I was expecting more of a gain from the Dessert Fest that was Saturday night, so I should be “happy” with that. And I am tying to be.  My next measurement day for day 90 of ChaLEAN Extreme is on August 28th… Under two weeks! It was actually supposed to be next week but Thomas and I decided to redo a week since we were so bad about working out last week.

I have had such a hard time sleeping the past week or so. Part of it is because I CANNOT stop thinking about my upcoming one-year mark for my weight-loss journey. The month of August is now half over, so I have found myself thinking more and more about reaching my one-year mark and what I want to do when I get there. September 1st is approaching fast and I keep finding myself thinking about everything that has happened over the past year and the things I am psyched about and the things I would go back and change if I could and the things I want to do in the future. I want to do an anniversary post about some of it, so I will not go into details right now. Just know that I have been doing a lot of thinking!  :o)

Ok… I am going to go attempt to sleep now. I thought maybe writing this post would help me get rid of some of my excess energy or whatever it is, so hopefully I will not have any problems getting to sleep now!

Highway to the Danger Zone…

Highway to the Danger Zone…

You know that 80s song? I’m 99% sure that it was in the move “Top Gun”. Well, it has been running through my mind, over and over, all morning. Highway to the danger zone… That seems like a good title for where I am at right now.

Confession time. I have really not been doing great for the past few days. I have not exercised since Wednesday afternoon. I had many reasons why I could not (or did not want to) work out, but I am not even going to bother with them. One night off turned into two nights off, which turned into three nights off, which morphed into four nights off. It is unacceptable for me, in my book. I also have to confess that my eating has not been what it should be. I have be majorly slacking when it comes to tracking my calories. I generally track my breakfast and lunch and usually an afternoon snack, but then it all falls apart. I do not think I have been doing too badly with my calories, but I know that I need to be tracking them or else I will end up in trouble. Also, I have had a major sweet tooth lately. I have been eating too many protein bars (which taste like candy bars, for anyone who has never tried one!) and have had too many desserts. I am ashamed to say that last night I even had seconds and almost ending up getting sick because I was so overly full. I do not think that dessert was insanely high in calories but, once again, I did not stop to take the time to figure it out. It was probably a lot worse for me than I am giving it credit for. (it was amazing though… An awesome alternative to cake and ice cream for birthdays, I think!)

So, this has all led me to do something drastic. As I have mentioned before, my one-year anniversary of being on my weight-loss journey is coming up. One of the first things that I decided to do last September was to go sweet-free for a month, in an attempt to reset my sweet tooth. I have been contemplating for a month or so whether I should make that a yearly tradition, to commemorate my starting point and to remind myself of my journey. And I decided. A few days ago that I did want to do that for sure this September (I will say that I am going to allow myself one “cheat” day. A friend of mine is getting married in the middle of the month and I am going to allow myself dessert that day. My challenge, my rules!). After yesterday though, I have decided that I am starting my sweet-free month early. I am not yet sure if I am going to just go for an actual month or if I am going to go through the end of September. That would be a really long time. But maybe that is exactly what I need. I know I need to curb my sweet tooth right now though, before it starts getting me in trouble. 

So, here are my Sweet-Free Rules:

  • I am allowed to have ONE protein bar a day (because I really do need the protein), but only at times when I am really desperate and shaking after a workout. Otherwise, I need to take the time to make myself a real snack.
  • I will record ALL food on LoseIt.com.
  • I will drink at least FOUR bottles of water a day.
  • I will follow my workout schedule and not make excuses.
  • I will not eat any sweets, including cakes, candies, ice creams, sweet crunchy things, or chocolate milk.
  • I will paint. I know this is totally not even remotely related to these other things, but it is something I need to remind myself to do.


  • I can do it and I WILL do it!

    Eek!

    Eek!

    Ok, I was just going through my weight-loss charts, trying to figure something out and I realized that I met not one but TWO weight-loss goals today! I am now in the overweight range for my BMI AND I have lost 25% of my starting weight!! I am now three-quarters of the woman that I once was! Eek!

    Weigh-In Wednesday…

    Weigh-In Wednesday…

    Weigh-In Wednesday… It has been a while since I have actually dreaded this day, but that is how I have felt for the past few days. I have a confession… I have gone over my calories a few days this past week. And I have not been great about tracking on the other days. I have felt like a bottomless pit lately, like I am always soooo hungry. And I have not been great on most days about curbing that. Not that I have gone over by a ton or made insanely bad decisions, but 200 calories a day adds up! And, on top of this, I have felt REALLY puffy and heavy the past few days. So I did not approach the scale with a lot of confidence this morning. I even had thoughts that I may have gained five pounds in the past week.

    I, thankfully, did not gain five pounds… I did not even gain one pound. I actually LOST 1.6 pounds! Which means that I have now met my next weight-loss goal and am now not obese!!! Woohoooooooooo!!!!!!! That is soooo exciting! I am officially considered overweight for the first time since just before I got married seven years ago! I never thought it would be so exciting to be considered “overweight” but it honestly is. 

    In light of my hard time with food this past week, I am thinking it is time for a new food makeover. I am only allowing myself a sweet treat once a week for the rest of the month. Iced tea and protein bars do not count as sweet treats at this point in time but I will be sure to change that if I find myself having them too often. I am hoping that this change will help me feel more in control of myself.

    “Ok. So you had a bad day. Don’t beat yourself up over it, but don’t let one bad decision send you spiraling out of control. Grab those running shoes and get back into it. Get back to making decisions that improve your health and your happiness. You are who you choose to be.